There is a new Angel in Heaven. One who has left a great void in our life and is already deeply missed. My boys' Bompa went home to be with Jesus a couple weeks ago. There is so much going through my mind that I am unsure how to put into words. My amazing 2 year old can't possibly grasp what has gone on but I am sure it's more than I give him credit for. I am surprised he hasn't been asking for Bompa but he did understand that he was sick so maybe that is why. How do you explain to a 2 year old Bompa is no longer here, he had an illness only God could fix so he went to be with him in Heaven? How do you explain to a 2 year old without making him terrified of anyone being sick? I don't want him to think that if he or someone he loves gets sick it means they will be going away. I am not sure anyone has these answers. I know he understands a lot has gone on these past couple months as he doesn't want to sleep alone for very long, is longing for his "firer" (pacifier) a lot more, and is extra clingy to Mommy. I am sure some people think he's too old to have his "firer" as much as he does, but he has had so much go on in his little world that only he knows how much he understands, so if he wants to hold on to his "firer" a little longer, it's okay. Potty training has slowed down and that's okay too. And if he needs more hugs and snuggles than usual, that is definitely okay. It breaks my heart he probably won't remember how much love and compassion his Bompa gave him. How Bompa would do anything he wanted him to. And all of those wonderful 4-wheeler rides he looked forward to with Bompa. I hope I can keep these alive for him to forever cherish like I will. And that brings me to my 5 month old baby who was named after his Bompa. I know he won't remember anything but I hope the picture we have of them together will give him an understanding of how much unconditional love Bompa had for him. When you see the picture I am talking about, you can't help but feel the love. I want him to know that he is named after an incredible man. A man who knew no stranger, always had a smile on his face, would do almost anything for anyone, has touched many lives and was loved by many, and a man that deeply loved and cherished his grandchildren. I look forward to watching my boys grow up and seeing characteristics of Bompa in them. And I am grateful they have a wonderful Angel watching over them.
(I appologize that this is choppy and rambly but as I said earlier, there are so many thoughts going through my head and I don't know how to put them all into words.)
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