Bittersweet

So, last night was a huge first. My oldest fall asleep without me by his side. (Sigh) (Tear) I am so proud of my little boy for doing so well with staying in his bed to fall asleep when I leave the room. He is doing amazing and doesn't try to get up. I am also very proud of him for falling asleep without someone next to him. But it is also so very sad for me. I didn't like not being there next to him when he went to dream land. It's just so bittersweet. And shows me once again how too quickly he is growing up. Someone please find a switch to slow life down a little bit, pretty please! I can't quite put my feelings about this first into writings. Perhaps there are no words to fully describe the mixed emotions I am feeling. But it's part of the "letting go" that Mommy must do even though Mommy doesn't want to! I want to keep my babies babies forever. And I know all Mommies know exactly what I mean!